As promised, I finished with my (now) ex on 19th June. She took £180 from that box in two weeks in the end. She couldn't even admit to what she'd done. She moved out after three weeks of me sleeping on the sofa and her acting like normal, as if I might back down or believe that she didn't do it even though there was no other explanation as to how the money had gone missing. Then about a month ago, I found out she'd cheated on me with a girl I never liked because I knew how much she fancied my ex, yet tried to pretend to be my mate. I confronted my ex about it and again (surprise surprise) she pleaded innocence. Even when the facts are there in front of her she can't admit to things because she's lied for too long.
I did my best to distance myself from her - not see her, not contact her, not think her about her etc etc. But she insisted on seeing me last week after two weeks of no contact so that she could 'get some stuff off her chest'. After ranting and crying and still saying she was innocent, she admitted to the cheating but wouldn't admit the whole truth about it. When I mentioned the stealing she said she should just tell me what I wanted ot hear. I said I just wanted to hear the truth and she said she took the money. It was punishment because she felt crap that I had money and she never did, even though she'd just started a new job. I got upset because things had been good between us at the time and I couldn't understand why she'd want to throw it all away like that if she'd really loved me. She then got pissed off because I wouldn't break down in front of her but eventually I got her to leave. As she went to the door, she asked if we could ever be friends! I told her I never wanted anything to do with her and she said "In that case, I cheated on you with my ex too". What a bitch!
I just don't know why I pick these women! Why do I give my heart, time and effort to these lying, cheating, thieving idiots?! I can't believe I was such a mug. Our relationship was a joke and she clearly never truly loved me. I'm so mad at myself for trusting someone I knew had that kind of history. I can't believe I bought it when she said things were different with me!
And now I'm single again. And hating it. All my friends are paired up and we all run in the same circles. So I don't have any single mates to hang out with and there aren't any lovely lesbians they can introduce me to. I'm no good at doing the single thing and chatting people up in bars. I just want to find a nice, caring, successful woman who can make me laugh, won't screw me over and wants to have fun! But it seems I'll never meet her........
